jan 31 2026

i don't know what im doing. ive never known what im doing. ive never done anything because ive never lived for myself. and despite everything i claim to be ive just been another cog in the machine. i dont know where this is headed, i just know its not good. so i dont know why im taking a victory lap when the end is so horrible.
i was so happy, i should be able to keep feeling so happy
so why is it all so terrifying
- mayra